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Wednesday, May 02, 2012

The Big Bang!

So.....
I met a boy..... :)

He calls me Sheldon Cooper .. Hah! :D


Wednesday, March 07, 2012

The Infinite Loop

You know how it is sometimes that you want to hear a tune on a boundless loop? Hasn’t happened to me in a while until this song! Its admirable how such an intricate passion which screams of heart ache could be precast into a pretty darn splendid and not-so-morose a song! The first time I came across the song was while I was blog hopping and I stumbled upon a music blog http://zomgtalk.com.



[Interlude: By the way, the blog is remarkable! It’s called ZOMGTALK. Its obviously about music and the ancillary, and it exposes you to an uncut (LOL!) indulgence of updates and reviews about the latest music along with the new releases. I mean, ZOMG! I had no idea about so many bands and artists being mentioned out there! It is also available on Facebook as http://www.facebook.com/zomgtalk for you Facebookers to ‘Like’ and follow. The unique thing which I noticed about the blog is that it is as good as being in real time. If there is a new album or a single out there, if there is a new song which tops the chart, it is updated almost instantly here! I beseech you avid readers and lovers of the sound of music to check out the blog once! ]



So, coming back to what I was saying, Gotye’s (Feat Kimbra) ‘Somebody That I Used To Know’ has been my ringtone for a while now, and the good signal is, that I am not yet tempted to change it! Oh! And did I tell you that the video is an absolute delight? Watch out for naked Gotye! (wink wink)


Another interesting thing happened though! I was with my ex this new year’s eve. Yes, we are still very close. And I know we will always be. I made him listen to it, and almost immediately he had a smile on his face.

“Josh, I know why you like this song!”
“Huh? How do you mean? There is a reason apart from the fact that it’s fucking brilliant?”
“O come on! Stop it. You know why.”
(Me, a little confused) “Akki, what are you talking about?”
“This is us! It is our story. This happened with us.”
(More than confused) “What? How is this our story?”
“Doofus! Pay attention to the lyrics.”


Now, I had heard the song many a times over. I knew the lyrics. But I never quite saw them in the light in which he did. I quickly recapped the rhythmic tide of musical lyrics in my head. And it suddenly dawned upon me. I understood.. I won’t elaborate upon the context of our story in relation to the song. That is rather personal to the both of us. But ya, it was our story! To a major extent. I couldn’t say much after that to him… just kept gazing at his face while he told me how he was Gotye and I was Kimbra. It was tough to relive a hard and seemingly relentless and excruciating time in mere 4 minutes and 4 seconds.

The last thing he said to me that day was, “Josh! I still know you better than you know yourself!

So, tell me again…why am I still in love with him?

Saturday, March 03, 2012

And Now.. It's Ashmit's Turn To Bare All!!

I fail to understand sometimes... How desperate can one get?

Ashmit Patel... a 30 something unsuccessful Bollywood actor has been associated with the film industry for over a decade now! During this spell (much arid for him!), he tried his hands at a lot of things. He was an Assistant Director to Vikram Bhatt before he attempted to display his acting skills. Too bad he couldn't make a mark in either of the fields. But then again, he is a straight Bollywood actor (Lol... I couldn’t help it!).


This decent looking bloke has quite made up for his failure on screen by keeping himself in the news. I was still schooling when his video with Riya Sen became the hot new MMS doing the rounds about the country, which apparently is back again because Ashmit has managed to stir it up once again for what I can only assume as a sadistic motive. Post that, his fling with that ugly ass woman called Veena Malik became the prime reason for the popularity of the stupid show in which these two were participating. I am sorry that I am writing negatively here, but Blah! This is my personal blog and this is what I feel personally. So people who don’t agree can go and shove their egoistic heads up their arse.

But Ashmit’s latest stunt (Thank God for that!) really caught my eye, if you know what I mean. Here he is... Ta dah! In the nude! :P


OMG!!! I never realized he could look so super hot! Damn man… I mean... Wow! So Ashmit, I apologize for ignoring you and your trivial attempts at being popular in the past. I apologize that I made fun of you while amidst my friends and how I told people that you totally deserve to be your sister’s brother! Just keep posing like this... for me... It’s a personal request! And I promise, with what I write about it over here, you will not need any more MMS scandals or fake relationships with slutty whores! In short, I’ll own you, bitch!

Coming back to the original question… is he that desperate? Like, does he honestly think that such stunts will give him a ‘career’ or create a market for him? Hell ya..!! As a porn star for us poor gay blokes who can only imagine to look so hot in a picture (even if morphed!).

Anyhow, Just enjoy the view people… enjoy the view! J

Sunday, February 19, 2012

Life As We Know It....

It has been quite a journey I'd say. I was all of 14 when I knew what I wanted. It was not sex. It was not guys. It was just... a naive need to be accepted the way I am, for who I am. So I started opening up, even to random strangers. Quite a schmoozer I was! I explored, ventured, snooped through the unknown. It was fun, as a kid! Guileless as I was, I went on a spell… sex, gay friends, parties, drugs... and other unmentionable things became a daily chore. Some would say that I had an awesome teenage life. And I’d say, “Hell ya! I did.”

 
Came early 20’s, I had made my spot as a popular loose boy across town. I loved my life and told myself, “This is the real motherfuckin’ deal yo’all!” And then, something happened which I never intended to do. I fell in love! Everything changed. But Life was still good. Guileless as I was, I went on a spell… Phone chats, long drives, dates, dinners.. and other unmentionable things became a daily chore. Some would say that I had the perfect relationship. And I’d say, “Yeah, well, about that.........!”


I am 27 now. I have spent the last three years collecting shards of a shattered heart. I’ve been through the cliché of inflicting self-pain, taking dangerous measures when the twinge won’t end, bled my wrists, charred my lungs, rusted my liver. In the process, I gained real friends, who cared, who slapped me when they needed to and who embraced me when I needed them to. They helped me get over my ex (Who am I kidding? I'll never be over him.). They helped me move ahead, see new horizons and bask in a new sun! I did not go on no spell this time. I was cautious. Some would say that my friends are awesome and they are pretty jealous of me. And I’d say, “One, there are just a couple of ‘em who are my real friends… two, little did I know about the impending backstabbing, over a stupid lay… and three, no matter what, they still rock my world!” They are still my friends. They always will be. I owe them much to take the recent cross too strongly. But I cant confront them. I can’t let them know that I know what they did.

 
Yes, Life is a mess right now. Not too sure what I am looking for, what I am doing here. I need out! Just wish to get away from everything that used to be good, used to be brilliant, used to be called..... Life!